Saturday, March 31, 2012

She has a hoodie and candy. I guess that makes her a threat?

Monday, March 26, 2012

Old, fat and out of shape

That is how I feel today. It's not a bad thing. It's just a reminder of where I am.

Today I am 6 weeks  post-partum which means that my excuse for not exercising has gone away. I'm actually really glad because I've been itching to run. I started at the beginning. Day 1 of week 1 of the couch to 5K (C25K) program. During those first few jogging steps, I practically creaked. I could feel every excess pound on my knees. I could feel the muscle atrophy of 10 months of no exercise. But after a few minutes I got going and really enjoyed it. I was slow. I was tired. But I felt good.

I have a long way to go before I have any real level of fitness. And longer to go to resemble the fitness level, I had for most of my 30's. But step 1 is done and I'm that much closer now.

1.5 miles, 30 minutes
180 calories

Friday, March 23, 2012

Fat Friday

Lawd, I am having trouble getting on the weight loss wagon. I am knee deep in diaper laundry, covered in spit up, and sleep deprived. It's hard to feel like doing something healthy and good for me. Despite nursing a little beast that weighs 13 pounds at 5 weeks, I have not dropped a single pound since the initial post-partum drop. That leaves me about 19 pounds over my starting weight. Which was about 35 pounds over my ideal weight.

Nursing makes me hungry. What's more it makes me hungry for sugar, precisely Pretzel M&Ms. Eating those by the handful is not, I repeat, NOT good for weight loss. So I am going cold turkey on sugar. No sweets for a week. I have an addiction and I need to break it. I am on day 2 and it hard. I want goodies!!!! Though it is easy now that I am home from the delicious aisles of Wegmans. I am hoping this will help get my glucose levels evened out and cut my carb cravings so I can focus on protein.

In better Fat Friday news, on Monday I will be 6 weeks post C-section, which means that, with the Docs OK, I can start exercising. I can not wait to start the C25K program  again. I completed it last spring before I got pregnant and laughed at the idea of hard exercise. I am so ready to be a runner again. finding time is going to be a challenge but I will do what I can.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

A touch of spring

It has been amazingly, fantastically, unseasonable warm this week on the east coast. That makes a mama who is home on maternity leave with two little kids very, very happy! We can go outside!!!

Any mother of a toddler knows just how fantastic that is. When you have two hours until nap time and your two year old is bouncing off the walls- what is better than a nice long walk outside. 

She can run!

 Find the tiniest wildflower amazing.
 Help push her baby brother.
Take the time to look at a winter-bare tree
 And of course, "SLIDE!!!!"
 All with Mommy and baby brother in tow.
Great naps were had by all!

Friday, March 16, 2012

Starting again from the beginning

I have started and stopped many blogs. I've never been able to find my identity as a blogger. Did I want to be a mommy blogger or a fitness blogger? Anonymous or open? Why blog anyway? Because of that lack of direction, my blogs have fallen by the wayside as my focus in life changes.

The last question is the easiest to answer:Why blog if I kind of suck at it anyway? I love blogs. I love to read about other people who are interested in the same things I am or are going through what I'm going through. I love those glimpses into other peoples lives. I am in awe of some of the bloggers that I read. How do they make their ordinary lives so riveting to readers?

They are skilled writers and I am not. That is a fact that I accept and I know that I'm never going to have a huge blog following. I don't particularly want that as I have enough on my plate with my job and family without feeling obligated to write a blog post. I just want a place to write about what I'm thinking about at any given time. Some days it will be weight loss and my attempts to get back in pre-baby shape. Some days it will be my cutie patootie kiddos. Or cloth diapers. Or Mad Men. Or maybe even some current issues. Whatever! No more will I try to write a blog about something particular, my attention span is too short for that kind of commitment. Randomness will be the theme.

So who am I?

I am Laura. I am 39 years old. I got married at the ripe old age of 35, after which I popped out my first kid at the even riper old age of 36 (Caroline, age 2). 2 years later I had another kid (Landry, age 1 mo). I am a stepmother. I work outside the home full-time.  I need to lose about 50 pounds. I breastfeed and cloth diaper. I love TV and the internets. I'm obsessed with the ID channel and wonder if I should be disturbed by that fact. I'm a Southern girl transplanted to the Mid-Atlantic. Go Vols. I spend too much and save too little. I have an amazing husband and I frequently worry that he will come to his senses. I am fine with being imperfect.